Courage

 I had lot of nights when I just can't fall asleep. This is one of them too. Lately I just receive so many impulses and mostly they come at night. I just can't shut dow my brain even if my body is dying of how tired I am. Those impulses are mostly positive ones. Thank God. In the last 2 weeks all my wishes/dreams I said out loud they came true. Like someone is hearing them and with all his/hers skills is trying to constitute them. But it's not the first time that this happened to me.  For example. My roommate asked me if Lana Del Rey would come to our country would I go on her concert. I said yes, of course. I know, they are many haters out there, and as I said I'm mostly a metal music fan ( but I really listen to ALMOST everything). Lana  for me is just everlasting inspiration. Like, she is filling some kind of emptiness is my soul.And now there is a pretty big chance that she is coming. I have two more examples for these things that "I say it out loud and it comes true" but those are secrets for now. ;) Stay tuned. Two big projects coming up, and I'm looking forward to them! So I think, the point of this post is just dreams do come true if we have the courage to pursue them work hard for them and SAY IT OUT LOUD ! Really, do it now!
Here are just some photos of my days lately. Cheers and listen to Kyla La Grange! ;)

My face when I see how much envy and hate is online sometimes

Late nights, no sleep

The only one who is pulling you back is you!

Days like this

When you just don't want to get out of the bed

Just go!

Lets get insane or lets be happy...together.

Love you better.

Learning to walk again

Hello! Lately I have been in a sad mood, I got some hate from the internet so I decided not to care about them anymore, and create a post about a happy thing which happened with me, and share with you guys. When I was a child, doesn't bothered me my height , but when you grow up a little bit and  become more "socially activ" you can see that some people in the world live in a big box. Everything in that box is normal.They are the normal and they define what is acceptable. Well my country created their own box, and everybody who is trying to make that box oval is like "Omg! What is he/she doing!?" or "Did you see that?!" Here, they really can hurt you if you are not "normal".and they don't even get that what they say is hurting the other. They are normal it's normal what they say.Normal is good, normal is the best. Be normal. Yeah right! You have to save that child in yourself! The child who thought everything is OK with everyone, we are equal. Don't let yourself and your thought become a "box", be "oval"! ;) And if you have that in yourself then : "Hello child! Meet my inner child! :D  So.. I never had a problem with my height until i was 10 or 11. I thought there is nothing unnormal in it.  What is a fact, there isn't! But, the kids around me mocked me about it so I became insecure. It took a while since somebody opened my eyes and said "Be proud on your height!". And since then I'm getting better all the time. I'm 185 cm or 6 feet 1"....however you want.  I'm thankful that in my life i met so much inspiring people, my family, they gave me strength. Thanks to them I am who I am now. My mother always said  "You are special and not unnormal." What I started to believe ! Don't try to be like the others! I wanted to be smaller so I bent my back (or how should I say it :)), and for sure that's ugly as hell .:D  Well, with years I got more self-confident.I have a wonderful tall boyfriend and I don't care anymore! :) A few days ago I bought a pair of heels , finally I found the perfect vintage T-strap shoes for less than 4EU in a second hand shop.

 It has higher heels than I'm used to, and makes me 195 cm tall, but I'm in love, satisfied and happy!And of course I'm learning to walk in them, since I never wore this high ones.:D Basically I'm learning to walk again! :D So, meet my new shoes :

With love, Delilah Kay! :)

Lets meet

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Hello! As you can see this is my first blog post. I don't know what should I write but I thought since you don't know who I am, first we should clear that.  My name is Elvira Kakusi alias Delilah Kay ( my "artist" name ). I started this blog because I always wanted  the world to hear me, to share things, maybe I will be able too change things in somebodies life. I was wondering for months should I start it or not but let's follow our dreams and don't care about the "bad"people. I live in Serbia in several cities, my mother tongue is Hungarian. Yeah I do live in a country which is famous about wars in Hollywood movies. It's not that bad. :D I don't want to copy other blogs. About their posts and style, 'cause that's what they do and not me. That's their style, their job. I will post thing about my life, maybe sometimes about others too. Who inspires me.  Let's see what  do I love...maybe you will find some things common. I was always interested in arts, music, painting and photography.http://yourdelilah.deviantart.com/ Music was my first love, and I’m still a huge fan of almost all kind of music. I collect songs, I want to understand them, enjoy them and music is what inspires me the most. Even our strict and traditional school system couldn’t destroy my love of arts. I always thought everyone should try to create something for the future generations and I always had a feeling that I was born to do something big. Maybe it sounds a little uppity, but I really had that feeling and still have it. As I said , I love photography ( as many of us lately), but I'm not sure can I say that I'm a photographer. I'm an amateur, I practice, I educate myself about it but I'm a maximalist in stuff  I love as they say around me, so I'm not sure that I will ever be able to say it out loud.I'll be posting my photos mostly , and if you like let me know.  I just love the old times, dresses, woman's beauty and I’m trying to bring that back and keep it simple.I'm a vintage/pin-up style lover, not vintage life lover! Ok, I love the elegance and what "culture" they had, but I really love the freedom of our era. But also I'm a metal music lover, so it's and adventure to combine these things.I always loved contrast. That you look soft and shy, or hard and loud but when you meet the person, he/she is totally awesome and the opposite of what you thought at first sight. I can't follow the vintage style totally, I combine it sometimes with modern stuff. I do shop in our local vintage shops, alias second hand shops and outdoor sellouts. I hate to shop in new stores. I know that the vintage style is back but it's all so newish. If you a true vintage lady, it shines from your eyes and how you walk, and how you stand. This modern vintage retro flew is just copy/paste. I know that in the old times it may look like that the women look all the same because of the wardrobe and hairstyle and makeup. But it's not that simple.They just all looked beautiful! Like real women, in clothes which has fit their body. They know that they are beautiful. And that's what I miss now.  I wear these clothes because they fit my body type more than those skinny jeans, and makes me feel special. Like everyday is special, really, and not just saying.Hmm...what else.I love make-up.I'm a Smoki maniac! It's a local snack of peanuts.:) I love swimming. I prefer pale skin but I just can't resist the swimming, so I like it or not I get tanned a little bit. I love black beer with lemon and I daily wear something with floral print (rosevoerdose). What do I hate? I hate falling on the asphalt and salt.
O.k. I think that's more than enough. Lets save something for some other posts too. :) In the future I promise I won't write this much and I will add more photos. I'm looking forward for this, and you are welcome on my blog. I think I did well, maybe my grammar didn't. :D Sorry.Feel free to contact me. Here are some photos of me. Stay tuned if you are interested.

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I know. My bangs were horrible then.

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Love,

Delilah Kay!